Ok, I need to compose myself.

If you're wondering why this post is in english, I'll tell you there's no particular reason for me to do it. It's just that sometimes I start thinking about things in english, and then I prefer to write exactly what I'm thinking. And I'm practicing, after all, so I don't see any problem.

Back to the subject... yes, I really need to compose myself. It's not like I could resolve my situation tomorrow, or in a month. It will take much more time than that, and I'm not that kind of woman who keeps complaining all the time.

But sometimes it's harder. Today was a hard day. Happy, in so many ways, but every time that I know that all the happiness is about to be replaced by a constant missing, until I can be with him again, it gets hard, almost unbearable.

And I was sad before all this, I must say. It's just that it's been a while I haven't felt sad. I guess it's more difficult to admit it now.

I've been feeling very stressed, and very tired. I wouldn't complain about the fact that I have to do all by myself, in fact, I don't see any problem in taking care of myself and my stuff, my house. But I wasn't expecting not having any company not even to have fun. I never thought it would be so difficult to be with my friends. Ok, I'm having fun, with all the new people I met here, but hey... sometimes we need to be with people who really know us. People we can really trust, with anything. And it's proving to be very hard to get around here.

I know, I know, the more the time passes, less time we have to ourselves. And it happens with everyone, and it's probably the reason it's being so hard to see my friends. But I still believe it shouldn't be THIS hard.

Anyway...

It's just thoughts, as always. Let's get some sleep, after all, there's a whole day waiting for me tomorrow, and life never stops to wait for us.